May 25, 2008

I read somewhere that it is ok to be a good mom for about 60% of time, for the rest, you can indulge yourself with anger, frustration, resentment, negligence ... Occasionally I have all the negtives, anger, frustration, loathe ... (Very honestly, very rarely though).

For the past week, I was in a kind of negligent mode. I was online surfing a lot, most read news about the earthquake. It is funny now China is caught in the mode of competition of self-sacrifice and mourning and heroism and showism ... Anyway, I was just hungry for the news, images. Try not to leave out Emma, I drew her in. ... When I got my books, I let her play games on PBSKids. Luckily she did not complain.

Last week, we did start on a new project. We bought tomato seeds, flower seeds, flower pots, soil and planted all of them. We spent a whole afternoon looking at flowers and pots at Home Depot.

In the beginning, it was just boring. For a whole week, there was nothing but two pots of dark soil. No sign of life at all. I was so inpatient I had to stir the soil up to check that I did not plant the seed too deep. Then a lot of yellow tender worms sprang up. Then they spreaded into two green leaves. Then they grew. We cheered. We check them everyday.

Last week Emma got sick. When she was sick, she was whiny.

... Annya is indeed going back home. I am getting tickets for my parents and her. Great.

Good mom, negligent mom

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I read somewhere that it is ok to be a good mom for about 60% of time, for the rest, you can indulge yourself with anger, frustration, resentment, negligence ... Occasionally I have all the negtives, anger, frustration, loathe ... (Very honestly, very rarely though).

For the past week, I was in a kind of negligent mode. I was online surfing a lot, most read news about the earthquake. It is funny now China is caught in the mode of competition of self-sacrifice and mourning and heroism and showism ... Anyway, I was just hungry for the news, images. Try not to leave out Emma, I drew her in. ... When I got my books, I let her play games on PBSKids. Luckily she did not complain.

Last week, we did start on a new project. We bought tomato seeds, flower seeds, flower pots, soil and planted all of them. We spent a whole afternoon looking at flowers and pots at Home Depot.

In the beginning, it was just boring. For a whole week, there was nothing but two pots of dark soil. No sign of life at all. I was so inpatient I had to stir the soil up to check that I did not plant the seed too deep. Then a lot of yellow tender worms sprang up. Then they spreaded into two green leaves. Then they grew. We cheered. We check them everyday.

Last week Emma got sick. When she was sick, she was whiny.

... Annya is indeed going back home. I am getting tickets for my parents and her. Great.

Sunday, May 25, 2008
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May 16, 2008

Diasters used to mean nothing to me, it is always in somewhere else, it is just numbers in the news.

However this diasters really hit home (nearly) and hit big.

My mom was getting ready to bed when the table started shaking, at that time, Annya was asleep. My mom knew it was earthquake, so she lay gently down by the side of Annya, guarding her.

Fortunately, Chengdu and Yaan where my families are, are not hit very bad.

I have asked around my friends whose families are in SiChuan, thankfully, everyone is safe.

Still feel so sad for the people who lost their lives, or their family. So sad for the so many children that were buired in rubbles.

Have talked with Emma a lot about the earthquake, she said:

China is not a great place, oh, it is dangerous.
But honey, there are diasters everywhere. There were hurricanes in America.

I showed pictures and pictures of people bleeding, buried, crying, she got sad but stuggled to say: mommy, they should be careful

She drew a picture of the earthquake where, in her interpretation, Annya slept in a bigger basinet in time of earthquake, so it is safer.

She really has no clue what earthquake is, she has no clue what suffering means.


At the wrong place wrong time, she could be Emma or Annya. Life is so precious yet so precarious.

Sichuan Earthquake

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Diasters used to mean nothing to me, it is always in somewhere else, it is just numbers in the news.

However this diasters really hit home (nearly) and hit big.

My mom was getting ready to bed when the table started shaking, at that time, Annya was asleep. My mom knew it was earthquake, so she lay gently down by the side of Annya, guarding her.

Fortunately, Chengdu and Yaan where my families are, are not hit very bad.

I have asked around my friends whose families are in SiChuan, thankfully, everyone is safe.

Still feel so sad for the people who lost their lives, or their family. So sad for the so many children that were buired in rubbles.

Have talked with Emma a lot about the earthquake, she said:

China is not a great place, oh, it is dangerous.
But honey, there are diasters everywhere. There were hurricanes in America.

I showed pictures and pictures of people bleeding, buried, crying, she got sad but stuggled to say: mommy, they should be careful

She drew a picture of the earthquake where, in her interpretation, Annya slept in a bigger basinet in time of earthquake, so it is safer.

She really has no clue what earthquake is, she has no clue what suffering means.


At the wrong place wrong time, she could be Emma or Annya. Life is so precious yet so precarious.

Friday, May 16, 2008
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May 10, 2008

Quotes from Emma:

What does that mean Happy ever after?
It means you are in love.
Are we in love?
No, we are just mommy and child.

What does "frustrated" mean?
It means whiny ...

Where is Asia?
It is in South America.

(Mena's mom works at White Water, Wisconsin)
I want to go to White Water. It is in South America.

(Her job this week at school is "Snack helper")
What does snack helper do?
You put a plate in front of each chair, put napkins by each plate, put ...
We have to hurry then, or we would miss the snack time, then you cannot help with the snacks.
No. No. It is afternoon snack, after you sleep.

I am in charges of my toes.

(She loves looking at mirror), mostly she would say:
I am the cutest girl in the Whole World.
Last night, she wet her hair and so her bangs look spiky. She said:
I am the goofy, bad hair night.

...

Happy ever after?

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Quotes from Emma:

What does that mean Happy ever after?
It means you are in love.
Are we in love?
No, we are just mommy and child.

What does "frustrated" mean?
It means whiny ...

Where is Asia?
It is in South America.

(Mena's mom works at White Water, Wisconsin)
I want to go to White Water. It is in South America.

(Her job this week at school is "Snack helper")
What does snack helper do?
You put a plate in front of each chair, put napkins by each plate, put ...
We have to hurry then, or we would miss the snack time, then you cannot help with the snacks.
No. No. It is afternoon snack, after you sleep.

I am in charges of my toes.

(She loves looking at mirror), mostly she would say:
I am the cutest girl in the Whole World.
Last night, she wet her hair and so her bangs look spiky. She said:
I am the goofy, bad hair night.

...

Saturday, May 10, 2008
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